I rarely do this at all but its sad when one person messes it up for everyone else. Im trying to gather my thoughts bare with me.
I dont hate myself but Im not fond of who I am becoming emotionally. Ive become this girl who uses guys for all they offer, who once it gets to a certain point I cut them off. once I start getting too deep I kill myself trying to get back to the surface. its weird and although some see nothing wrong with that. Its not who I used to be. I used to run jump and free fall but now Im constantly looking over the edge in contemplation.